Life

So we've been living without water for a month and a half. And about 2 weeks ago we got a 30 day notice because we lost our house. We have to move into our shop. I have no water where I am now, and I'll have no home really soon.

On top of that, something's majorly wrong with me and I don't understand it. I... I got delivered from several demons about a month ago, but the problem is now I feel like I'm being held down more than I ever was before. I can't write. I can't read any kind of literature. I have no passion for anything except God, but not even that's a burning consuming fashion. He's just the only thing I can still feel for. I can't believe I'm even saying all this publicly but I really need help right now. I'm spending so much of my time depressed that I really don't know how much longer I can stand it. I'm tired. In every way. I need relief.

praying...if you need anything..to talk...or anything u can PM me or IM me on yahoo or aim. just hang in there.

prayin, most definitely

i cant say I've ever experienced it but a total nothingness of passion would drive me mad

just wait, it will get better

Thanks guys.

I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers and will want an update from you perodically to know how this is going and how your life is going. Your can PM it to me or email me (you have my email) or post it here for everyone to read I don't care, but I would like to know how you're doing.

James 1:2 - Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,

Remember this verse and remember my favorite verse of all times because it truly will help you out. That's why it's in my signature.

Matthew 11:29-30 - Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

If you will have pure faith in God and Christ for Him to fix this situation then He will. But you have to be willing to give it up to Him. Trust me, I know it's a hard thing to do but you just have to it if you want everything to turn out right. Again, I'll be praying for you and please keep me, or us posted on your situation.

hey im here 4 u to angel
Hold on it will get better
praying for you

I'll keep you guys posted. Thanks so much.

So today, something AWESOME happened. We met with a guy and he gave us a downpayment on one of the stores that we own. So we just sold a building. That'll help us drastically in trying to find a place to live.

....And I got rid of my razor blade two days ago.....

I just got a lot more mass confusion thrown at me last night, so I ask for prayer for that. The good news is I'm staying strong and I haven't touched a blade. I'm giving it to God and so far He's given me enough peace to get by.

I'm so happy to hear that, Ash. That's so awesome!

I'll keep praying for you!

...So I'm like inches away from giving up on God completely and everything else but life itself right now and that scares me to death. But I don't know what else to do.

whats going on? iv not seen you in so long!
still praying for you and send me an email when ever you want! we all are here for you and i think i speak for everyone here when i say you play a key part in each of us so whats going on?

I agree. What's the status with your situation? Why are you inches away from giving up on God? What has changed?

Please come back so we can catch up and see how you have been and what's going on with you.

Umm.... Hmmm..... *makes words*


So Dayla switched schools. Kelly has no classes with me. Kyle dumped me. Almost everyone else is too busy to talk to me. I'm alone. Abandoned. Hating every minute of every day because there's nothing worth living for anymore.
Stripped of all talent. Drawing, Writing. All of it. Apathy to the level of zombie. Walking dead. Constant pain. Living in a lie which someone just ripped away with a truth I never wanted to hear. Yeah. And I'm a drama queen with mental problems.

Fallen Angel wrote:And I'm a drama queen with mental problems.

Sorry but who isn't?

You aren't alone. We're here for you and you know Hayley's always there for you.

Sorry to here about all the things that are going south in your life. All I can say is to fall down...and pray. I know that's a tough thing to here right now but it's the truth. I've been in situations like your describing in more times then I care to admit to. And god just let it get worse until I did something about it...gave it up. Not to be confused with "giving up" but "giving IT up."

Do you remember what I told Jace that one time the three of us were in the chat room together? About praying about everything that was going wrong in his life and talking, not Sunday school prayer but REAL prayer, to God about literally EVERYTHING that was bothering him. Do you remember what I told him to do after that? I told him to pray until everything was out (and you may even cry while doing this...I do at times) then after everything was out, take your Bible and just let open. But you have to end your prayer with asking God to speak to you first. Then when you read your Bible from wherever it opened watch and be amazed at what happens.

God will speak to you and you will be given the answer that you need. Remember that it may not be the answer we always want but it's what God wants for you. And that is FAR more important then anything we could ever want.

I'm always here to just vent to and get things off of your chest. I love all of you guys like you were my family and I hate to see you being so attacked right now my Satan and his minions but that's a fact that we will never escape. There are always going to come times when the devil is going to through everything he has at us to steer us from God, but you have to make the decision whether you're going to let him win or not. I'm here for you if you need me, you should know that by now. Just remember the verse I tell everybody:

Matthew 11:29-30 - Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

I want you to do that exercise that I talked about and then let me know what you read and what God says to you. He's right there waiting for you but you need to take the first step and reach out for him.

You're always wanted, welcome, and loved here, Ashleigh. Don't ever think otherwise cause you'd be wrong. And you know it.



I leave you with this:

Deuteronomy 31:6 - Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you not forsake you.